An Apology

I apologize to the polytheists, the heathens, the Pagans, and good people of good faith. In a misguided attempt at holding space for diversity of our polytheistic ways, I have caused a good deal of wreckage to the very people and ideals I should be supporting.  I am horrified. 

I have been reassessing my place and my involvement in our overlapping religious communities, and I have realized that I have been blind in promoting attitudes which I cannot in good conscience or good faith ignore. 

Furthermore, I do not wish to support ideas brought forth as edgy, controversial, or subversive when the ideas promoted as "edgy, controversial, and subversive" are not at their heart compassionate, useful, and supportive of human rights and dignity. Through the best of my intentions, I have been misled. I cannot, will not, hold space for toxic attitudes and behaviors which undermine the goodness and justice I would like to be done in this world.

I am an abuse survivor.  I am a survivor of cultic and religious abuse. I am a survivor of sexual abuse. I am also a survivor of antisemitism and other forms of racism. I have been scapegoated. I have been bullied, and I have been isolated by bullies. I have not gone through that foulness only to find myself supporting the very attitudes which can cause that foulness to flourish. I know what it feels like to be put in danger and to be threatened  and have my family, friends, and community threatened. I do not wish that on good people. 

It's not good. It's not ok. 

No. Just. No. 

Again, folks, I apologize.